It wasn't easy, but I finally got my car out of hock! I can't believe they moved it just three days after repossessing it to Sacramento (just over a two hour drive from me). I got the 1,472.00 needed to get the car back just one day before it was going up another 235.00. Getting the money together was a lot easier then getting someone to drive me to Sacramento. No one wanted to. I don't blame anyone, but I have to think to myself.."How many times have I heard..." I'll do anything for you, just ask".". Well, I asked, and got shot down again, and again and again. Brianne and I were walking to the store. It's NOT around the corner! It's a busy "highway" and no sidewalk. Anyway, we got it back. Now water is going to be shut off again and I am officially 120 days late in rent.
I have to TRY to get out of bed in the morning. I have to TRY to clean my house, I have to TRY not to just lay in bed all day, the depression is so bad. The worst thing to have, however, is fear. Fear can and will freeze you in your tracks. It rises up so bad that the only thing you feel you can do is pull the covers over your head and hope it will go away. Well, it won't. It's been helping having aid from the state. I get over 300 in food and 515.00 in cash aid. It's not easy keeping it, the paperwork alone is a full time job! My goal is, however, to get completely off of it. I'm just not sure when, just as I am not sure when I can get off of these meds. When "all is well". Will that ever happen?
I know there are others of you out there, struggling as I am, or are about to, or have. Please feel free to vent on here with comments. I don't want a pity party out of this, I am simply trying to share my experience and hope that with everything that I have gone through, one person won't feel alone, one person will seek the help I have sought out, and one person will make it out of their current situation.
I saw in Redbook the other day an article on women who were making six figures working from home. I have been working from home for almost 8 years. Selling my jewelry on esty. I now have an online clothing store and just signed up to be an Avon representative. I cannot work a 9-5 desk job. But I have found ways to make money and be home for my daughter and my sanity! It's easier then ever. Think about a craft, hobby, or skill that you could turn into a money making machine...all on line. There was a woman in the article who was a virtual assistant! Brilliant! Right? She booked appointments, travel, did on line shopping, all kinds of things including basic bookkeeping right from her couch! There are sights you can go to that will help you start one of these, just bing it! (I like bing these days...sorry google!) Everything is done online now and so many people work from home, why not you? Not to mention doing the research will keep the fear at bay! Seek it out, check it out and get back to me. Then I want 10%! haha! just kidding! Kinda.
Anyway, keep the fear at bay, it is non-productive. Move always forward, and use that BING!
Fear is not your friend, you and Bing are, so remember, you are not alone!
xoxo C
